C'est Elyse!
This is my stylistic ramblings for things in between: a collection of little niknaks that I found interesting. Totally tumblrd. Just like how my brain functions.
About me:
Enjoying life, loving the web & gadgets, traveling extensively, and capturing everything in my camera.
Japan & Paris = ♥♥♥
stylistic cafe ♥
Some more raw honesty.
This world is not now, and will never be, a fair place. Things happen and people like to try to figure out why. They use religion or philosophy to attempt to explain what they cannot understand, but there is no explanation. There are only events and the lessons we take from them.
I have tried so hard to take a lesson from certain things in my past. I may have found little nuggets of wisdom in things that have happened, but that doesn’t make it any easier to deal with. Right now, the present is digging up the past. Things that I would rather push to the back of my mind are being stirred up again, and at the most inopportune moment. The knowledge that I have only myself to blame for the path which my life took makes this even more frustrating. No, frustrating isn’t the word. To be honest, I really don’t know what the word I’m looking for is.
My problem isn’t moving on. My problem is this moment and the things it has stirred up. My problem is that I care too much and give too many people the benefit of the doubt. The problem is that I am emotionally exhausted, and yet I feel as though I cannot talk to anyone about it. The problem is that I am sick and tired of people’s bullshit words and their actions which tell a whole different story. I am tired of the shows that people like to put on, pretending to care so much and pretending to give a fuck; but when the curtain closes, they are really just another apathetic soul with selfish intentions. I hate these masquerades. I hate how I let my feelings run away from me. I hate how the television is playing loud enough to shake the windows from the other room and I know that if I go in and ask them to turn it down, I will probably lose it completely. I hate that I even care about that.
